Chapter 228: It Freaking Hurts

Translator: Nyoi-Bo Studio Editor: Nyoi-Bo Studio

He wanted to walk up.

How could he not want to go up?

He wanted to walk up to her and ask her directly, Whats wrong? Why are you wearing someone elses coat?

No, he couldnt ask that. He should say, Jin Nian, happy birthday. 1 came here especially to celebrate your birthday.

No, he should have pulled her away and said, Jin Nian, you idiot. Dont you know that 1 like you? Why do you have to be so close to others?

No, thats not right. It doesnt seem right. No matter what, it doesnt seem right.

Lu An, who had always ignored the thoughts of others and only acted according to his will, was a little helpless. He didnt know what to do. He thought about how he should start chatting with Jin Nian after not seeing her for a few months. However, it seemed that nothing he did would be right.

Therefore, he just stood there quietly and looked at Jin Nian.

He watched Jin Nian holding hands with another boy under the streetlight.

How did he feel then?

Lu An could still remember the pain. His heart seemed to have been cut out alive. Blood was flowing out, but the flesh and blood were all spilled on his body in the process of the rough cutting and tearing. Something like concentrated sulfuric acid dropped endlessly onto his skin. His skin was corroded layer by layer, turning black.

It hurts. It hurts so much!

If he didnt go forward and disturb Jinnian, he wouldnt make any mistakes and wouldnt do anything wrong. This was all the gentleness he could give.

Lu An didnt know what gentleness was. He had learned all those gentle ways of dealing with people from Jin Nian, so he could only give her all of them.

At that moment, Lu An felt as if his brain was being nibbled away bit by bit. He was like a soulless walking corpse. He walked out of Jin Nians school empty-heartedly according to the orders left in his brain. Every step he took felt like he was walking on the tip of a knife, and blood was dripping from his body.

He walked all the way and finally came to a tattoo shop. The signboard of the tattoo shop was colorful, and those non-mainstream and chuunibyou patterns were hung at the entrance of the shop as promotional signs.

He asked the shop a.s.sistant if tattooing hurt.

The shop a.s.sistant replied, Everyones tolerance and sensitivity to pain are different. It varies from person to person. However, generally speaking, the smaller the tattoo area, the less painful it would be.

He asked again, What can 1 do to feel hurt?

The shop a.s.sistant had never heard of such a request from a customer, but she still replied good-naturedly, When the tattoo area is large, and theres no anesthetic.

Lu An chose the largest pattern and got someone to tattoo it on his arm.

He did not hesitate at all.

Whether it was six years ago or now, people would more or less have some prejudice against people with large tattoos. The shop a.s.sistant repeatedly confirmed with Lu An if he had to get such a big tattoo.

Lu An was very decisive. No need to put on anesthetic. Just do it.

The needles pierced into his skin as if there were thousands of ants gnawing on his flesh.

Lu An didnt frown at all. His expression was extremely calm. He seemed to have suddenly fallen in love with this pain.

A few days after the tattoo, the tattooed area began to swell and scab, followed by an endless itch. Lu An ignored the shop a.s.sistants instructions. He directly scratched and tore the scab away, leaving b.l.o.o.d.y marks on his arm.

The wound started to fester, then the skin festered, and finally scab formed. Then, it was torn off, and so forth.

That day, Lu An held himself back and went up to Jin Nian, but he couldnt help but give her a call. He wished her a happy birthday.

This time, he didnt ask if Jin Nian wanted him to come over.

He just pretended that he never came and made a call from afar.

The gifts that he wanted to give to Jin Nian were given to her by someone else instead.

When Jin Nian heard Lu Ans voice, she seemed very excited. Little Anan, thank you for wis.h.i.+ng me a happy birthday. How have you been recently?

Im good.

Jin Nian didnt believe it. Just a good level? You must have made a lot of good friends there!

In fact, it wasnt even good.

He did not have many friends.

However, Lu An didnt clarify it, so she let Jin Nian think in that way.

The call lasted for almost twenty minutes, and Lu An was reluctant to hang up.

Jin Nian excitedly shared her recent situation with him.

She said that she had fallen in love with a senior, and now that senior had already responded to her.

Lu An didnt say anything. He perfectly played the role of a listener.

He didnt want to wish Jin Nian happiness with another man. He couldnt pretend to be so carefree.

But it was good to just hear her voice..