"Durwood was wondering if you'd be staying on here," she told Serena. "Any chance you might move back to Baltimore?"

"Oh," Serena said, "Baltimore seems so far away by now. Who would I know anymore?"

"Me and Ira, for one thing," Maggie said. "Durwood Clegg. The Barley twins."

The Barley twins were walking just behind them, clinging to each other's arms. Both wore clip-on sungla.s.ses over their regular gla.s.ses.

"Linda has been after me to move to New Jersey," Serena said. "Get an apartment close to her and Jeff."

"That would be nice."

"Well, I'm not so sure," Serena said. "Seems anytime we spend a few days together I begin to realize we haven't got a thing in common."

"But if you lived close by you wouldn't be spending days together," Maggie said. "You'd be dropping in and out. You'd be leaving when the conversation ran down. And besides, you'd see more of your grandchildren."

"Oh, well, grandchildren. I've never felt they had all that much to do with me."

"You wouldn't say that if someone kept them away from you," Maggie told her.

"How's your your grandchild, Maggie?" grandchild, Maggie?"

"I have no idea," Maggie said. "n.o.body tells me a thing. And Fiona's getting married again; I found that out purely by accident." thing. And Fiona's getting married again; I found that out purely by accident."

"Is that so! Well, it'll be good for Larue to have a man around."

"Leroy," Maggie said. "But see, Fiona's true love is still Jesse. She's said as much, in so many words. There's just something gone wrong between them temporarily. It would be a terrible mistake for her to marry someone else! And then poor little Leroy...oh, I hate to think of all that child has been through. Living in that run-down house, secondhand smoking-"

"Smoking! A six-year-old?"

"Seven-year-old. But it's her grandmother who smokes."

"Well, then," Serena said.

"But it's Leroy's lungs getting coated with tar."

"Oh, Maggie, let her go," Serena said. "Let it all go! That's what I say. I was watching Linda's boys this morning, climbing our back fence, and first I thought, Oh-oh, better call them in; they're bound to rip those sissy little suits, and then I thought, Nah, forget it. It's not my my affair, I thought. Let them go." affair, I thought. Let them go."

"But I don't want to let go," Maggie said. "What kind of talk is that?"

"You don't have any choice," Serena told her. She stepped over a branch that lay across their path. "That's what it comes down to in the end, w.i.l.l.y-nilly: just pruning and disposing. Why, you've been doing that all along, right? You start shucking off your children from the day you give birth; that's the whole point. A big, big moment is when you can look at them and say, 'Now if I died they could get along without me. I'm free to die,' you say. 'What a relief!' Discard, discard! Throw out the toys in the bas.e.m.e.nt. Move to a smaller house. Menopause delighted me."

"Menopause!" Maggie said. "You've been through menopause?"

"Gladly," Serena told her.

"Oh, Serena!" Maggie said, and she stopped short, nearly causing the Barley twins to b.u.mp into her.

"Well, goodness," Serena said, "why should that bother you?"

"But I remember when we first got our periods," Maggie said. "Remember how we all waited? Remember," she said, turning to the Barley twins, "how that was once the only thing we talked about? Who had started and who had not? What it must feel like? How on earth we'd keep it secret from our husbands when we married?"

The Barley twins nodded, smiling. Their eyes were invisible behind their dark gla.s.ses.

"And now she's gone and stopped," Maggie told them.

"We haven't stopped," Jeannie Barley caroled. haven't stopped," Jeannie Barley caroled.

"She's gone through change of life!" Maggie cried.

"Wonderful; announce it to the world," Serena said. She linked arms with Maggie and they resumed walking. "Believe me, I barely gave it a thought. 'Well, good,' I told myself. 'Just one more thing to let go of.'"

Maggie said, "I don't feel I'm letting go; I feel they're taking things away from me. My son's grown up and my daughter's leaving for college and they're talking at the nursing home about laying off some of the workers. It's something to do with the new state regulations-they're going to hire on more professionals and lay off people like me."

"So? That job was always beneath you anyway," Serena said. "You were a straight-A student, remember? Or near about."

"It is not beneath me, Serena; I love it. You sound just like my mother. I love that job!"

"Then go back to school and get to be a professional yourself," Serena said.

Maggie gave up on her. She was too tired, all at once, to argue.

They turned in through a little gate, onto a flagstone path. Serena's house was newer than the others-raw brick, one story, modern and compact. Someone stood at the front window, drawing back a curtain to gaze out, but when the guests approached she dropped the curtain and vanished. She reappeared at the door, a b.u.t.tressed and corseted woman in a stiff navy dress. "Oh, you poor thing!" she cried to Serena. "You come right on in. Everybody, come in! There's lots to eat and drink. Anyone want to freshen up?"

Maggie did. She followed the woman's directions and pa.s.sed through the living room, which was filled with heavy furniture in a wagon-wheel motif, and down a short hall to the bedroom. The decor seemed purely Max's doing: a bedspread patterned with multicolored license plates, a beer stein collection lining the bookshelf. On the bureau, a photo of Linda in cap and gown stood next to a bronze cowboy boot stuffed with pencils and gnawed plastic swizzle sticks. But someone had hung guest towels in the bathroom and set out a bowl of rosette-shaped soaps. Maggie washed up, using the bar of Ivory she found in a cabinet beneath the sink. She dried her hands on a grayish bath towel draped behind the shower curtain, and then she peered into the mirror. The walk had not done anything for her appearance. She tried to flatten her bangs down. She stood sideways to the mirror and sucked in her stomach. Meanwhile the Barley twins were discussing Linda's photograph: "Isn't it a pity she got Max's looks and not Serena's." Nat Abrams said, "Would this be the line for the john?" and Maggie called, "Just coming out."

She emerged to find Ira waiting with Nat; now their topic was gas mileage. She returned to the living room. The guests were gathered in the dining alcove, where platters of food covered a table-sandwiches and cakes and drinks. Sissy Parton's husband was serving as bartender. Maggie recognized him by his violent pink hair, the color of freshly cut cedarwood. It hadn't dimmed in the slightest. She went over to him and said, "h.e.l.lo, Michael."

"Maggie Daley! Nice singing," he said. "But what became of Ira?"

"Oh, well..." she said vaguely. "Could I have a gin and tonic, please?"

He made her one, pouring the gin with a flourish. "I hate these affairs," he told her. "This is my second funeral this week."

"Who else died?" Maggie asked.

"Oh, an old poker buddy. And last month my Aunt Linette, and the month before that...I tell you, first I went to all my kids' school plays, and no sooner was I done with those than we start on this."

A stranger came up and asked him for a Scotch. Maggie started circulating through the living room. She didn't hear much talk of Max. People were discussing the World Series, the prevalence of crime, the proper depth for tulip bulbs. Two women Maggie had never seen before were a.s.sembling a composite portrait of some couple they both knew. "He was a bit of a drinker," one said. was a bit of a drinker," one said.

"Yes, but he adored her."

"Oh, he'd never have managed without her."

"Were you at that Easter brunch they gave?"

"Was I there! The one with the chocolate centerpiece?"

"It was a present from him to her, she said. He'd surprised her with it that morning."

"A hollow chocolate rabbit. He'd filled it with rum."

"She didn't know he'd filled it with rum." didn't know he'd filled it with rum."

"He said he'd wanted it to be like those Swiss candies they fill with liqueurs."

"Rum seeped out the bottom."

"Little melty holes in the chocolate."

"Worst mess you ever saw, all across the tablecloth."

"Lucky it was only one of those Hallmark paper tablecloths for holidays."

Back in the dining alcove, the Barley twins were talking with Michael. They had flipped up their clip-on shades, which stuck out above their gla.s.ses like the perky antennas of some sharp-faced, cute little creatures from outer s.p.a.ce, and they were nodding earnestly, in unison. Jo Ann and Sugar were discussing mixed marriages-the consuming interest of Jo Ann's life for years before her wedding to Nat and evidently afterward as well. "But tell me the truth," Sugar was saying. "Doesn't it sometimes seem to you like every every marriage is mixed?" And Serena's two little grandsons were surrept.i.tiously bombarding each other with bits of cake. It looked good: angel food. Maggie thought about trying a slice but then she remembered her diet. She had a virtuous, empty feeling in the center of her rib cage. She traveled around the table surveying what was offered, resisting even the bowl of Fritos. "The dump salad is mine," Serena's neighbor said at her elbow. marriage is mixed?" And Serena's two little grandsons were surrept.i.tiously bombarding each other with bits of cake. It looked good: angel food. Maggie thought about trying a slice but then she remembered her diet. She had a virtuous, empty feeling in the center of her rib cage. She traveled around the table surveying what was offered, resisting even the bowl of Fritos. "The dump salad is mine," Serena's neighbor said at her elbow.

"Dump salad?"

"You take a packet of orange Jell-O powder, a can of crushed pineapple, a carton of Cool Whip..."

Some woman in a bouffant hairdo said h.e.l.lo and the neighbor turned to greet her, leaving Maggie with the gritty feeling of Jell-O powder on her teeth.

Serena was over by the buffet, beneath an oil painting of a dead bird with a basket of olive-drab fruit. Linda and her husband stood next to her. "When all these people leave, Mom," Linda was saying, "we're taking you out to dinner, anyplace your heart desires." She spoke a little above normal volume, as if Serena were hard of hearing. "We're going to buy you a real meal," she said. leave, Mom," Linda was saying, "we're taking you out to dinner, anyplace your heart desires." She spoke a little above normal volume, as if Serena were hard of hearing. "We're going to buy you a real meal," she said.

"Oh, well, there's so much food right here in the house," Serena said. "And I'm honestly not all that hungry anyhow."

Her son-in-law said, "Now, Mother Gill, just tell us your favorite restaurant." Jeff, that was it. Maggie couldn't think of his last name.

Serena said, "Um..." She glanced around, as if hoping for a suggestion. Her eyes brushed Maggie and traveled on. Finally she said, "Oh, well, maybe the Golden Chopsticks. That's a good place."

"What kind is it, Chinese?"

"Well, yes, but they also have-"

"Oh, I just don't care for Chinese food," Linda said. "Not Chinese or j.a.panese, either one, I'm sorry to say."

"Or any other Oriental," Jeff pointed out. "You don't like Thai food either."

"No, that's true. Or Filipino or Burmese."

Serena said, "But-"

"And you can't eat Indian; don't forget Indian," Jeff said.

"No; Indian has those spices."

"Spices affect her digestion," Jeff told Serena.

"I guess I'm just sensitive or something," Linda said.

"Same goes for Mexican."

"But we don't have any Mexican," Serena said. "We don't have any of those places."

Linda said, "What I'd like to know is how the Mexicans themselves can stand all those spicy seasonings."

"They can't," Jeff told her. "They come down with this awful condition that coats the insides of their mouths like plates of armor."

Serena blinked. "Well," she said, "what kind of restaurant did you two have in mind?"

"We thought maybe that steak house off of Route One," Jeff told her.

"MacMann's? Oh."

"That is, if it's all right with you."

"Well, MacMann's is kind of...noisy, isn't it?" Serena asked.

"I never thought it was noisy," Linda said.

"I mean it's always so noisy and crowded."

"Just take it or leave it, Mom," Linda told her, raising her chin. "We were only trying to be nice, for G.o.d's sake."

Maggie, standing just outside their little circle, waited for Serena to toss her one of her wry, eye-rolling expressions. But Serena didn't even glance at her. She seemed shrunken, somehow; she had lost her dash. She lifted her drink to her lips and sipped reflectively.

Then Max's brother called, "Serena? You ready for this?"

He was gesturing toward a mildewed black leatherette case that stood on the coffee table. It looked familiar; Maggie couldn't think why. Serena brightened. She turned to Maggie and said, "That there is my surprise."

"What is it?" Maggie asked.

"We're going to show a movie of my wedding."

Of course: a film projector. Maggie hadn't seen one of those in years. She watched as Max's brother unsnapped the silver clasps. Meanwhile Serena moved away to lower the window shades. "We'll use this biggest shade for the screen," she called. "Oh, I hope the film hasn't just disintegrated or bleached out or whatever it is that old film does."

"You mean your and Max's Max's wedding?" Maggie asked, following her. wedding?" Maggie asked, following her.

"His uncle Oswald took it."

"I don't remember a camera at the wedding."

"I was thinking back over the songs last night and I all at once remembered. 'If it's still in one piece,' I said to myself, 'wouldn't it be fun to watch?'"

Fun? Maggie wasn't so sure. But she wouldn't have missed it, all the same; so she found herself a seat on the rug. She set down her gla.s.s and curled her legs to one side. A very old lady was sitting in a chair next to her, but at this level all Maggie saw were her thick beige cotton anklets melting over the tops of her shoes.

Now the guests had got wind of what was about to take place. Serena's cla.s.smates were settling around the projector, while the others started flowing distractedly in different directions, like something under a microscope. A few edged toward the door, mentioning baby-sitters and appointments elsewhere, promising Serena they would keep in touch. Several returned to the bar, and since Michael had deserted, they began mixing their own drinks. Michael was in the living room now, and so was Nat. Ira wasn't anywhere that Maggie could see. Nat was asking Sugar, "Am I in this, do you think?"

"You are if you sang at the wedding."