"Not another word about it, Tom. You are blameless. I wish I were. If we only act as G.o.d would have us, other considerations may look after themselves--or, rather, He will look after them. The world will never be right till the mind of G.o.d is the measure of things, and the will of G.o.d the law of things. In the kingdom of Heaven nothing else is acknowledged. And till that kingdom come, the mind and will of G.o.d must, with those that look for that kingdom, over-ride every other way of thinking, feeling, and judging. I see it more plainly than ever I did.
Take my sister, in G.o.d's name, Tom, and be good to her."
Tom went to find Martha, and I to find Ethelwyn.
"It is all right," I said, "even to the shame I feel at having needed your reproof."
"Don't think of that. G.o.d gives us all time to come to our right minds, you know," answered my wife.
"But how did you get on so far a-head of me, wifie?"
Ethelwyn laughed.
"Why," she said, "I only told you back again what you have been telling me for the last seven or eight years."
So to me the message had come first, but my wife had answered first with the deed.
And now I have had my revenge on her.
Next to her and my children, Tom has been my greatest comfort for many years. He is still my curate, and I do not think we shall part till death part us for a time. My sister is worth twice what she was before, though they have no children. We have many, and they have taught me much.
Thomas Weir is now too old to work any longer. He occupies his father's chair in the large room of the old house. The workshop I have had turned into a school-room, of the external condition of which his daughter takes good care, while a great part of her brother Tom's time is devoted to the children; for he and I agree that, where it can be done, the pastoral care ought to be at least equally divided between the sheep and the lambs. For the sooner the children are brought under right influences--I do not mean a great deal of religious speech, but the right influences of truth and honesty, and an evident regard to what G.o.d wants of us--not only are they the more easily wrought upon, but the sooner do they recognize those influences as right and good. And while Tom quite agrees with me that there must not be much talk about religion, he thinks that there must be just the more acting upon religion; and that if it be everywhere at hand in all things taught and done, it will be ready to show itself to every one who looks for it. And besides that action is more powerful than speech in the inculcation of religion, Tom says there is no such corrective of sectarianism of every kind as the repression of speech and the encouragement of action.
Besides being a great help to me and everybody else almost in Marshmallows, Tom has distinguished himself in the literary world j and when I read his books I am yet prouder of my brother-in-law. I am only afraid that Martha is not good enough for him. But she certainly improves, as I have said already.
Jane Rogers was married to young Brownrigg about a year after we were married. The old man is all but confined to the chimney-corner now, and Richard manages the farm, though not quite to his father's satisfaction, of course. But they are doing well notwithstanding. The old mill has been superseded by one of new and rare device, built by Richard; but the old cottage where his wife's parents lived has slowly mouldered back to the dust.
For the old people have been dead for many years.
Often in the summer days as I go to or come from the vestry, I sit down for a moment on the turf that covers my old friend, and think that every day is mouldering away this body of mine till it shall fall a heap of dust into its appointed place. But what is that to me? It is to me the drawing nigh of the fresh morning of life, when I shall be young and strong again, glad in the presence of the wise and beloved dead, and unspeakably glad in the presence of my G.o.d, which I have now but hope to possess far more hereafter.
I will not take a solemn leave of my friends iust yet. For I hope to hold a little more communion with them ere I go hence. I know that my mental faculty is growing weaker, but some power yet remains; and I say to myself, "Perhaps this is the final trial of your faith--to trust in G.o.d to take care of your intellect for you, and to believe, in weakness, the truths He revealed to you in strength. Remember that Truth depends not upon your seeing it, and believe as you saw when your sight was at its best. For then you saw that the Truth was beyond all you could see."
Thus I try to prepare for dark days that may come, but which cannot come without G.o.d in them.
And meantime I hope to be able to communicate some more of the good things experience and thought have taught me, and it may be some more of the events that have befallen my friends and myself in our pilgrimage.
So, kind readers, G.o.d be with you. That is the older and better form of GOOD-BYE.