"But to teach is to make people understand."
"I don't think so. If you come to that, how much can the wisest of us understand? You remember what Pope says,--
'Superior beings, when of late they saw A mortal man unfold all Nature's law, Admired such wisdom in an earthly shape, And show'd a Newton as we show an ape'?"
"I do not know the pa.s.sage. Pope is not my Bible. I should call such superior beings very inferior beings indeed."
"Do you call the angels inferior beings?"
"Such angels, certainly."
"He means the good angels, of course."
"And I say the good angels could never behave like that, for contempt is one of the lowest spiritual conditions in which any being can place himself. Our Lord says, 'Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones, for their angels do always behold the face of my Father, who is in heaven.'"
"Now will you even say that you understand that pa.s.sage?"
"Practically, well enough; just as the poorest man of my congregation may understand it. I am not to despise one of the little ones. Pope represents the angels as despising a Newton even."
"And you despise Pope."
"I hope not. I say he was full of despising, and therefore, if for no other reason, a small man."
"Surely you do not jest at his bodily infirmities?"
"I had forgotten them quite."
"In every other sense he was a great man."
"I cannot allow it. He was intellectually a great man, but morally a small man."
"Such refinements are not easily followed."
"I will undertake to make the poorest woman in my congregation understand that."
"Why don't you try your friend Mrs Oldcastle, then? It might do her a little good," said Miss Hester, now becoming, I thought, a little spiteful at hearing her favourite treated so unceremoniously. I found afterwards that there was some kindness in it, however.
"I should have very little influence with Mrs Oldcastle if I were to make the attempt. But I am not called upon to address my flock individually upon every point of character."
"I thought she was an intimate friend of yours."
"Quite the contrary. We are scarcely friendly."
"I am very glad to hear it," said Miss Jemima, who had been silent during the little controversy that her sister and I had been carrying on. "We have been quite misinformed. The fact is, we thought we might have seen more of you if it had not been for her. And as very few people of her own position in society care to visit her, we thought it a pity she should be your princ.i.p.al friend in the parish."
"Why do they not visit her more?"
"There are strange stories about her, which it is as well to leave alone. They are getting out of date too. But she is not a fit woman to be regarded as the clergyman's friend. There!" said Miss Jemima, as if she had wanted to relieve her bosom of a burden, and had done it.
"I think, however, her religious opinions would correspond with your own, Mr Walton," said Miss Hester.
"Possibly," I answered, with indifference; "I don't care much about opinion."
"Her daughter would be a nice girl, I fancy, if she weren't kept down by her mother. She looks scared, poor thing! And they say she's not quite--the thing, you know," said Miss Jemima.
"What DO you mean, Miss Crowther?"
She gently tapped her forehead with a forefinger.
I laughed. I thought it was not worth my while to enter as the champion of Miss Oldcastle's sanity.
"They are, and have been, a strange family as far back as I can remember; and my mother used to say the same. I am glad she comes to our church now. You mustn't let her set her cap at you, though, Mr Walton.
It wouldn't do at all. She's pretty enough, too!"
"Yes," I returned, "she is rather pretty. But I don't think she looks as if she had a cap to set at anybody."
I rose to go, for I did not relish any further pursuit of the conversation in the same direction.
I rode home slowly, brooding on the lovely marvel, that out of such a rough ungracious stem as the Oldcastle family, should have sprung such a delicate, pale, winter-braved flower, as Ethelwyn. And I prayed that I might be honoured to rescue her from the ungenial soil and atmosphere to which the machinations of her mother threatened to confine her for the rest of a suffering life.
CHAPTER XXVI. SATAN CAST OUT.
I was within a mile of the village, returning from my visit to the Misses Crowther, when my horse, which was walking slowly along the soft side of the road, lifted his head, and p.r.i.c.ked up his ears at the sound, which he heard first, of approaching hoofs. The riders soon came in sight--Miss Oldcastle, Judy, and Captain Everard. Miss Oldcastle I had never seen on horseback before. Judy was on a little white pony she used to gallop about the fields near the Hall. The Captain was laughing and chatting gaily as they drew near, now to the one, now to the other.
Being on my own side of the road I held straight on, not wishing to stop or to reveal the signs of a distress which had almost overwhelmed me. I felt as cold as death, or rather as if my whole being had been deprived of vitality by a sudden exhaustion around me of the ethereal element of life. I believe I did not alter my bearing, but remained with my head bent, for I had been thinking hard just before, till we were on the point of meeting, when I lifted my hat to Miss Oldcastle without drawing bridle, and went on. The Captain returned my salutation, and likewise rode on. I could just see, as they pa.s.sed me, that Miss Oldcastle's pale face was flushed even to scarlet, but she only bowed and kept alongside of her companion. I thought I had escaped conversation, and had gone about twenty yards farther, when I heard the clatter of Judy's pony behind me, and up she came at full gallop.
"Why didn't you stop to speak to us, Mr Walton?" she said. "I pulled up, but you never looked at me. We shall be cross all the rest of the day, because you cut us so. What have we done?"
"Nothing, Judy, that I know of," I answered, trying to speak cheerfully.
"But I do not know your companion, and I was not in the humour for an introduction."
She looked hard at me with her keen gray eyes; and I felt as if the child was seeing through me.
"I don't know what to make of it, Mr Walton. You're very different somehow from what you used to be. There's something wrong somewhere. But I suppose you would all tell me it's none of my business. So I won't ask questions. Only I wish I could do anything for you."
I felt the child's kindness, but could only say--
"Thank you, Judy. I am sure I should ask you if there were anything you could do for me. But you'll be left behind."
"No fear of that. My Dobbin can go much faster than their big horses.
But I see you don't want me, so good-bye."
She turned her pony's head as she spoke, jumped the ditch at the side of the road, and flew after them along the gra.s.s like a swallow. I likewise roused my horse and went off at a hard trot, with the vain impulse so to shake off the tormenting thoughts that crowded on me like gadflies. But this day was to be one of more trial still.
As I turned a corner, almost into the street of the village, Tom Weir was at my side. He had evidently been watching for me. His face was so pale, that I saw in a moment something had happened.
"What is the matter, Tom?" I asked, in some alarm.