Chapter 920 "Liu Qing Yu's goal (10)"
“I thought in this lifetime I would never be able to acquire a queen for myself, nor did I care for State Teacher's prophecy. But with your sudden appearance in my life, I know I can no longer live without you. If you do leave me, then it will be by ripping my flesh and blood right out of me….." Di Cang's tone had never been this sincere and warm before, causing the other side to tremble so slightly.
“Who taught you these words?” She asks with a hint of blaming like it's his fault that she's feeling all fuzzy inside.
"Am I really that kind of person in your heart?" Showing a distraught look, the demon king literally had black lines running through his face.
“No, I’m just a bit confused by it, that's all. These kinds of blus.h.i.+ng words didn't seem to fit you."
“Oh Yan Yan, you will always be the most special one in my heart. Whatever I won't do for others, I will do for you, do you not understand that?" It's exactly like he says. In this world, the only thing that could make him give up his dignity and let go of his pride was her.
Towards those heartfelt words, Bai Yan responded by embracing that body using her own. She's not blind, she could see the level of love he's giving. Like the aggressiveness, the strong vicious nature of his character, and the heartlessness, none of that has ever been used on her unlike everyone else.
“Di Cang, do you remember what I told you before? Whenever I'm not emotional moved while doing it, I would immediately fall into those painful memories that didn't belong to me…."
In her view, those people and the woman she embodied during those images weren't her, or more exactly, its things that happened in her past life. A fleeting memory of old.
“But this time…. I don’t know why, but I can’t tap into that sea of memory.”
Acting in good faith, Di Cang narrows his eyes in and swiftly pulled the woman onto his chest. He wanted to use his entire existence to comfort that face.
“It's fine if you can't tap into those images. Perhaps its for the best…."
Blinking her eyes in confusion, Bai Yan had this aching notion that this demon king knew something which she herself doesn't. Now that leaves a question hanging in the air, why? According to her impression, Di Cang clearly didn't know anything based on his initial reaction during the first time she told him about the situation, that means whatever he's hiding only became known afterwards.
Recalling back to that mysterious white robed man in the battlefield, Bai Yan's forehead had inexplicably furrowed into a tight knot. There are so many things that remains an unknown right now and its driving her mad.
“Yan Yan, you don’t have to think about those things,” said the man with a strong protective voice, "you will always have me."
“Di Cang, are you afraid?”
While being embraced by those powerful arms, Bai Yan definitely felt a thump of worry when listening in on his heartbeat.
He's definitely afraid of something….
A little stiff in his reply: “Promise me Yan Yan, don't think about those things."
“Why?”
“Because… I won’t allow you to be hurt in any way.”
I don’t want to… lose you again.
“Promise me, okay?” Di Cang's arms grew tighter, showing how anxious he really was inside despite the vain attempt at acting strong.
Musing for a second: “Alright, I promise you…." Since Bai Yan believes him, she won't press for an answer until he's ready. That's what a partner does.
“But, Di Cang, I don’t want you holding secrets back from me," their eyes lock together, "and, my capacity to accept things aren't as small as you believe."
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