This chapter has some violence and **** attempts.

Nadazhda POV

She was visibly scared but her heart was telling her, 'he would never hurt her'.

She looked at the gnash mark on his chest but  it had already healed up.

Was the bite meant for her?. She thought and shuddered in fear.

He breathed softly, trying to catch his breath while he was  growling.

His filled with disgust, ashamed of what happened. He didn't looked at him, he was looking the ground. The air around us was tensed, something was tugging me in my chest to do something.

I touched a softly making him raising his head up, looking at him with understanding. He didn't need to loathe himself.

"It's Ok" I said softly.

"It's not okay" he shook his head in denial, he was ashamed of himself, "it was meant for you" he stated disgustingly.

"You don't mean to right?" I questioned gently, pecking him at his jaw.

He moved away from me, my eyes mistakenly went down and saw his bulge. He was clearly aroused  but I didn't wanted to make it awkward.

He looked like he wanted to escape from me, his eyes continued to dart around before he blurted out, "I'm traveling tomorrow".

"What?" I asked, I was shocked.

"I've meeting with the coven tomorrow but I'll be back before this week ends" he tried to rea.s.sure her. I could see it in his eyes that he wanted to touch me but was holding himself back.

It hurt!

He didn't want me.

No one wanted me.

He was trying to get away from me.

"Oh?" I was sad.

He turned abruptly and left  on the counter without looking back.

My heart was breaking as he was taking his steps.

The distance between us, was making my heart to ache.

His scent that calmed me had left leaving me to reality.

I was cold, I felt a sense of devu ja washed over me.

Rejection.

My heart yearned him,I'd not know him more than some weeks ago but now, something had s.h.i.+ft between us that day, he showed me his beasts.

I got down from the counter, standing on my shaking legs. I walked wobbly to my room, stumbling on some things on the way.

I entered my room and felt the warmth of the room but it didn't calm me down.

I thought he enjoyed it, then why feeling remorsed?. I wondered.

I tossed around on the bed to sleep but I couldn't because I could felt his emotions.

He was scared and it was making me feel worried.

Many jumbled emotions were going inside, it was making me restless. I need to relieve and relax myself. I took a piece of paper with pen on the table and started to scribble all the emotions.

I didn't know how to open up to people but I knew how to open up to my book.

"Bareea, what happened?" Rina asked him worriedly.

"Nothing" I choked on my tears the rejection was too much for me to handle, "I just need some time alone" I wiped my watery nose and she puffed away, leaving me to my miseries.

My heart is bleeding.

My heart is yearning.

Where are you?

I need you?

This distance is too much.

I don't know if could feel like this but,

Since you came along, I've been like this.

I don't understand this new feelings but,

I wish to never let go of this feelings.

Everything is messed up like a puzzle.

But, I wish to unwrap it like a prezzie.

I tired if feeling rejection

When all I want is acceptance.

My heart is gloomy dark.

My brain is cloudy.

My mine is brewing for the unseen.

I stopped when I felt my eyes closing, I crackled my fingers and I yawned tiredly. I was exhausted physically and emotionally.

I got under the duvet and slept to another world, I wished to escape.

Since my mother's death, my dad has been coming home late drunk, he broke everything or anything on his way while yelling and cried. I hide under my bed in my dark room because I was scared, "mom" I cried, she was the one who always chased all the demons away but not she was nowhere.

"You promised to stay with my" my seven years old lips trembled I  fear of the dark room. I heard the door to my door to my room was yanked  open and papa came inside stumbling around with his bottle with him.

"Princess, where are you?" he coed, he looked like the demon but I stood from where I was hidden.

"Papa" I ran to him and hugged him, "don't leave me like mom" I sniffled.

He threw the bottle away abruptly, making me flinched from the sound. He yanked my hair, painfully. His eyes were bloodshot.

"You are the cause of your mother's death" he yelled while dragging me with him, "you killed her" he threw me away.

The pain was too much, blood was oozing out of my head.

"Papa" I called out.

"I'm not your father!" he yelled, "I'm not a muderer's father." he announced while I winced in pain.

"P" I interrupted with a hard slap on my cheek which made my lips to bleed.

"I said I'm not your father, murderer" I whimpered, I felt my seven years old self drifting into unconsciousness wis.h.i.+ng that papa should changed.

The air around me changed, I felt a warm soothing touch on my head, luring me away from my nightmare. I held the hand fistfully, not wanting to lost the contact, "please don't leave me" I whispered and drifted off to a dreamless dream.

A knock on the door, woke me out of my sleep, I rubbed my eyes tiring and said 'come in' with my croaked voice.

"Luna"I remembered the voice, the man that promised to take me to the garden.

"h.e.l.lo" I greeted, "my name is not Luna, I'm Nadazhda" I said, getting out of the bed.

"Sorry, I'm Zeke" he introduced himself dramatically while bowing. I giggled, rolling my eyes.

"Nice to meet you"

"It's a pleasure dollface" I raised my eyebrow at him.

"Where.. Is erm.. Zaccheus?" I asked fibbly.

"Oh" he wiggling his brows playfully, "he has gone" he spoke with seriousness.

"OK" I nodded my head dejectedly.

"Not feel sadden sugar, I'm here" he poked himself, "to make you feel better" he exclaimed while I smiled.

"Now shoo, go have your bath"he shooed me," then we will know what to do" he clapped his hand excitedly while I rushed to shower. "meet me in the kitchen" yes screamed and banged the door.

After I was through with showerin, brus.h.i.+ng and taming my hair to pony tail. I put on one of his s.h.i.+rt which reach my mid thigh and one of his short also because I needed him closer with me and I closed the door behind me.

I went to the kitchen and stopped on my track because what shocked me was the number of people I saw in the kitchen. The kitchen and the dinner room were joined together. Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned their gaze at me, the sniffed the air before they started whispering in hushed voice.

I felt unwelcomed.

They were judging me, some sneered at me especially the young ladies while some looked at me like a s.l.u.t. I stomach churned with unsettledness.

"Is okay" Zeke clapped his in dismissively, he came to me and pulled the chair out for me.

I sat down, my gaze was solemnly on the table. Tears glistened in my eyes wanting to be shed.

I ate quietly, I felt a warm soothing touch on my arm and I looked up only to see the woman that talked to me in my dream. She smiled softly at me, urging me to be comfortable but I couldn't be.

"She is a human" a lady with ginger hair said with detest while glaring at me, I looked down meekly, tugging some strain of my hair behind my ear.

I sat still on the chair, I couldn't stand up.

"Everyone to your position, something comes up and I need to attend. Please let her feel at home" he smile softly at me before he want out. Everyone also dispensed except from the ginger redheaded girl and her minors.

They stalked toward me while I was looking for a way out but they cornered me.

They smiled at me softly but I knew look could be deceiving.

"What's your name girl?" one of them touched my hair, making some strain to cover my eyes.

"Nadazhda" I stuttered, fiddling with the s.h.i.+rt.

"Oh, she stuttered" they laughed.

"Why are you on his s.h.i.+rt?" they quirk their brows at me.

"ermm.. He said he loves me in his s.h.i.+rt" I said while my cheeks colored embarra.s.sedly.

"Who?" the ginger redheaded girl spoke.

"Zacch..." I felt a hard slap on my cheek. I thought my dad slap was hard but I was wrong.

"How dare you lowly human call him by his name" she yelled at me, making me flinched away.

"He said I should call...." I tried to defended myself but felt another slap again.

"We are gonna teach you a lesson s.l.u.t to never utter that name or look at him" she bellowed, tearing my s.h.i.+rt hungrily. She took the tore s.h.i.+rt and inhaled before releasing a content smile.

"Take her to the bas.e.m.e.nt" I shook my head fearfull.

"No, please don't" I begged, only to received another slap.

I was claustrophobic, I was afraid of close place. I got panic attacks from it.

"No please, don't do this" I was thrown to the wall, I could feel my rib broken.

"This will teach you not to mess with me s.l.u.t, no one should gives her food or water. Let her die. The King won't even notice she is gone" she laughed sinisterly.

"Punish her, strike her. Let her bleed, let her know she is not a match with me" she commanded while the guards chorused "Yes ma'am".

I was stripped out my underwear leaving me exposed, the breeze that was entering through the small window was making me s.h.i.+vered in cold.

She was walking our before turned back and ordered the guards to chained me.  I was standing before my right hand was chained to the pole while my left was chained to the nail. She came with a long belt, I panicked, struggling with the chains but it was futile. The first belt strike my back while I released an anguished scream. The belt cut through my skin, blood was oozing out of it. She hit me again, making me screamed again.  She strike me till my voice hoa.r.s.e, I couldn't screamed again. I just wanted everything to stopped. I couldn't feel my hands on legs. I was released and I fell with a loud thud, I crawled to the dark side of the room, crying my eyes out. My back was paining me, the pain was executing. I wished for death. My chest constraint, making my vision to be blurred, my breathing was coming in short pant.

I did nothing wrong!

Was it a crime to want to feel love

Rina came to me while her wings were fluttered some pearls at me which calmed me down a little.

"Help me, call zaccheus for me" I said weakly before losing myself to darkness.

The pain never ceased to stop, I was beaten till I lost consciousness, I'd not see Rina since I'd told her to find zaccheus for me. The pain was too much for me to handle. I was losing myself and mind. The darkness here was making me go crazy. I didn't know how many days, I've been here but I just hoped to die soon. The pain and suffering should stop.

Where are you?

When I need you.

I'm tired

I'm tired of wis.h.i.+ng

I'm sick of hoping

I'm tired of dreaming

I'm n.o.body

I'm dying

I'm fading

I'm leaving

No one is for me

I'm by myself

People promise to be there,

But they all leave.

I just need your warmth

I need you

I want to you

I miss you

But I know

All are lies

Illusions

Fantasy

Fake

I'm n.o.body.

⚠️⚠️⚠️

I was jerk from my thoughts by cold water been pouring on me. The cold water seeping into my opened wound making me cried out.

There were two guys with me, one was holding the bucket while other was looking at my exposed breath with l.u.s.t. I covered my breast but he swatted my hands away.

"Don't touch her" the one with bucket said.

"Don't tell me you don't fantasies about this small and perky breast" he kicked his lips.

"No" I shook my head.

The man without bucket slapped my breast while he laughed, "it is soft like I'd imagined". He fiddled with my breast while the second man was bitting my nibbles.

"No, please stop" I was weak, I couldn't do anything. Only tears were leaving my eyes.

"By the time we started with you, you would be shouting in pleasure" the man laughed talking his hand downward.

"No" I thrashed around, the second man punched me on my head, making me feel dizzy.

"You will regret this" the man seethed, unbuckled his trouser, "I'm going to f.u.c.k you hand that your vocal cord won't work anymore and you won't be able to walk" he growled.

"Zaccheus" I screamed as the man wanted to enter me. Everything was frozen. The door to the bas.e.m.e.nt was yanked away revealing a fuming zaccheus while I sighed in relief and lost myself to darkness.

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