take on like that ... better clear off then"; and a moment later, seeing Edgar Strong b.u.t.toning up his coat, he called out, "Wait a minute, Strong--we're going down too--get your hat, Laura----"
Five minutes later Cosimo Pratt and his wife were alone.
It was the first time they had been so for nearly a fortnight. Indeed, for weeks the departure of the last visitor had been the signal for their own good-night, Cosimo going his way, she hers. There had never been anything even remotely approaching a "scene" to account for this.
It had merely happened so.
Therefore, finding himself alone with his wife in the studio again, Cosimo yawned and stretched his arms above his head.
"Ah-h-h!... You going to bed?"
As he would hardly be likely to take himself off before she had answered his question, Amory did not reply at once. She sat down on the footstool and stretched her hands out to the asbestos log. Then, after a minute, and without looking up, she broke one of their tacitly accepted rules by asking a direct question.
"What were you and Edgar Strong discussing?" she asked.
He yawned again.--"Oh, the Bookshop advertis.e.m.e.nt--and advertis.e.m.e.nts generally. It begins to look as if we should have to be less exclusive about these things. Strong tells me that it's unheard-of for a paper to refuse any advertis.e.m.e.nt it can get."
"I mean when you got out the atlas."
"Oh--India, of course. The Indian policy. Strong isn't altogether satisfied about Prang. He seems to think he might get us into trouble."
"How? Why?" Amory said, her eyes reflectively on the purring gas-jets.
"Can't make out. Some fancy of his. The policy hasn't changed, and Prang hasn't changed. I wonder whether Wilkinson's right when he says Strong's put his hand to the plough but is now ... _ah!_ That reminds me!--Were you here when that preposterous fellow--what's his name--Crabtree--rather let the cat out of the bag about Wilkinson?"
"You mean about another paper? No. But Walter said something about it."
"Yes, by Jove! He seems to have it all cut-and-dried! Crabtree seems to think I knew all about it. Of course I did know that Wilkinson had a scheme, but I'd no idea he was jumping ahead at that rate. I don't want two papers. One's getting rather serious."
Still without looking at her husband, Amory said, "How, serious?"
"Why, the expense. I'm not sure that we didn't take the wrong line about the advertis.e.m.e.nts. Anyway, something will have to be done. Thirty pounds a week is getting too stiff. I'm seriously thinking of selling out from the Eden and the Bookshop. Do you know that with one thing and another we're down more than three thousand pounds this year?"
Amory was surprised; but she realized instinctively that that was not the moment to show her surprise. Were she to show it, the moment would not be opportune for the raising of the subject of the fund, and she wanted to raise that subject. And she wanted to raise it in connexion with Cosimo and Britomart Belchamber. She continued to gaze at the log.
The servants, she thought, might have taken the opportunity of dinner to sweep up the litter of cigarette-ends that surrounded it; and then she had a momentary fancy. It was, that the domestic relations that existed between herself and Cosimo were a thing that, like that mechanical subst.i.tute for a more generous fire, could be turned off and on as it were by the mere touching of a tap. She wondered what made her think of that....
Cosimo had taken out his penknife and was sc.r.a.ping his nails, moodily running over items of disburs.e.m.e.nt as he sc.r.a.ped; and then the silence fell between them again.
It was Amory who broke it, and in doing so she turned her head for the first time. She gave her husband a look that meant that, though he might talk about expenses, she also had a subject.
"Walter was excessively stupid to-night," she said abruptly.
He said "Oh?" and went on sc.r.a.ping.
"At the best he's never a model of tact, but I thought he rather overstepped the mark at dinner."
Again he said "Oh?" and added, "What about?"
"His manners. His ideas are all right, I suppose, but I'm getting rather tired of his platform-tricks."
"His habit of ill.u.s.tration and so on?"
"And his want of tact generally. In fact I'm not sure it isn't more than that. In a strange house it would have been simply a _faux pas_, but he knows us well enough, and the arrangement between us. He might at any rate wait till he's called in."
Cosimo started on another nail.--"What arrangement?" he said.
Again Amory gave him that look that might have told him that, though he might think that only a lot of money had gone, she knew that something far more vital had gone with it.
"Do you mean that you didn't hear what he was saying about you and Britomart Belchamber?"
"Yes, I heard that, of course. Of course I heard it."
"Well?"
"Well!"
And this time their eyes met in a long look....
Cosimo had only himself to thank for what happened to him then. After all, you cannot watch a superb piece of female mechanism playing "Catching of Quails," and openly admire the way in which it can shut up like a clasp-knife and fold itself upon itself like a multiple lever, and pretend to be half in love with it lest sharp eyes should see that you are actually half in love with it, and take it for walks, and discuss Walter's Lectures with it, and tell it frequently how different things might have been had you been ten years younger, and warn it to be a good girl because of dangerous young men, and stroke its hair, and tell it what beautiful eyes it has, and kiss its hand from time to time, and walk with your arm protectingly about its waist, and so on and so forth, day after day--you cannot, after all, do these things and be entirely unflurried when your ever-so-slightly tiresome wife reminds you that, be it only by way of ill.u.s.tration, a young expert in such matters has coupled your name with that of the pa.s.sive object of your philanderings. Nor can you reasonably be surprised when that wife gives you a long look, that doesn't reproach you for anything except for your stupidity or hypocrisy if you pretend not to understand, and then resumes her meditative gazing into a patent asbestos fire. Appearances _are_ for the moment against you. You can_not_ help for one moment seeing it as it must have appeared all the time to somebody else. Of course you know that you are in the right really, and the other person entirely wrong, and that with a little reasonableness on that other person's part you could make this perfectly clear; but you _are_ rather trapped, you know it, and the state of mind in which you find yourself is called by people who aren't anybody in particular "flurry."
Which is perhaps rather a long way of saying that Cosimo was suddenly and entirely disconcerted.
And his flurry included a certain crossness and impatience with Amory.
She was--could be--only pretending. She knew perfectly well that there was nothing really. The least exercise of her imagination must have told her that to press Britomart Belchamber's hand, for example, was the most innocent of creature-comforts. Why, he had pressed it with Amory herself there; he had said, jokingly, and Amory had heard him, that it was a desirable hand to press, and he had pressed it. And so with Britomart's dancing of "Rufty Tufty." Amory, who, like Cosimo, had had an artist's training, ought to be the last person to deny that any eye so trained did not see a hundred beauties where eyes uneducated saw one only. And that of course meant chaste beauties. Such admiration was an exercise in a.n.a.lysis, not in amorousness.... No, it was far more likely that Amory was getting at him. She was smiling, a melancholy and indifferent little smile, at the asbestos log. She had no right to smile like that. It made him feel beastly. It made him so that he didn't know what to say....
But she continued to smile, and when Cosimo did at last speak he hated himself for stammering.
"But--but--but--oh, come, Amory, this _is_ absurd! You're--you're tired!
Me and Britomart! Oh, c-c-come!----"
And then it occurred to him that this was a ridiculous answer, and that the proper answer to have made would have been simply to laugh. He did laugh.
"Ha, ha, ha! By Jove, for the moment you almost took me in! You really did get a rise out of me that time! Congratulations.--And I admit it is rather cool of Walter to pounce on the first name that occurs to him and make use of it in that way. Deuced cool when you come to think of it. It seems to me----"
But again that quite calm and unreproaching look silenced him. There was a loftiness and serenity about it that reminded him of the Amory of four or five years before. And she spoke almost with a note of wonder at him in her tone.
"My dear Cosimo," she said very patiently, "what is the matter? You look at me as if I had accused you of something. Nothing was further from my thoughts. I suppose, when you examine it, it's a matter for congratulation, not accusation at all. As Walter said, I don't want to fly at anybody's eyes. We foresaw this, and provided for it, you know."
At this cool taking for granted of a preposterous thing Cosimo's stammer became a splutter.--"But--but--but--," he broke out: but Amory held up her hand.
"I raise no objection. I've no right to. What earthly right have I, when I concurred before ever we were married?"
"Concurred!... My dear girl, concurred in what? Really this is the most ridiculous situation I was ever in!"
Amory raised her brows.--"Oh?... I don't see anything ridiculous about it. It received my sanction when Britomart stopped in the house, and I haven't changed my mind. As I say, we foresaw it, and provided for it."
"'It!'" Cosimo could only pipe--one little note, high and thin as that of a piccolo. Amory continued.
"I'm not asking a single question about it. I'm not even curious. I didn't become your property when we married, and you're not mine. Our souls are our own, both of us. I think we were very wise to foresee it quite at the beginning.--And don't think I'm jealous. Perfectly truly, I wish you every happiness. Britomart's a very pretty girl, and n.o.body can say she's always making a display of her cleverness, like some of them.
I respect your privacy, and want you to do the best you can with your life."