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It's not that I'm not happy being alone with P'Pha in the same room...

It actually feels sooo good but the thing is...  I can't seem to do things right and it makes me feel awkward at the same time. It's not in a negative kind of way though and you have to understand that I can't be myself in front of P'Pha since he is the only person I like.

I'm scared to death that he'll see my ugly side or I might do something that will make him feel uncomfortable.

Sigh...

Having this one-sided love is kind of exhausting. ?

You don't just have to be wary about yourself but also for the other person.

And yes... I'm starting to feel exhausted now, I admit... It's tiring that just thinking about it consumes almost half of my energy for the whole day...

"What's with that long face of yours?" P'Pha, who's busy playing on his iPad, raises his head to look at me while I'm drowning thinking about our situation.

"Am I bothering you?"

He's been sitting on the sofa playing with his tablet since he got out from the shower so how can he bother me?

"I can go outside if you can't sleep."

Oh dear... I think I'm back to over thinking things again...

"No... How about you? Do you feel uncomfortable?" Uuurgh! Not only did I replied to him but I also asked him the same question that has been running on my mind for quite some time now.

If he say yes, please let me jump from the balcony to the outdoor pool downstairs... ? I'm such an embarra.s.sment.

"Are you kidding?" He looks at my face. "We sit quite far from each other and do things on our own so you're not bothering me at all."

Wew! Such a relief!

"I'm sorry... It must be not that fun staying here with me..." I said slowly.

"What's wrong with you? Do I need to laugh and have fun all the time whenever I'm with you? You're crazy, kid."

He doesn't seem to care about it but I wonder why am I thinking so much?

"So what are you doing?" I'm sitting on the bed while he's half-lying-half -sitting on the sofa staring at his iPad.

"I'm looking for something."

"What is it?"

P'Pha shows a bit of his unpleasant expression telling me I'm asking too much questions.

If you're not responding, how are we supposed to have something to talk about? ? Tss!

"I'm looking for piano chords."

"Do you also play the piano?" My jaw almost drop hearing it. I remember back in high school, if he's not playing basketball, he'll play guitar leisurely with his friends. I never heard he could play the piano.

"No, I don't."

"..." (Wrong!)

"It's for you... It won't be long before the compet.i.tion night and you have to come up with your piece... Don't tell me you still haven't thought about it?"

Oops...

It's supposed to be my problem but he's doing it on my behalf.

I feel so touched. ?

"What's wrong with you? You're making a funny face right now... Really... You feel touched, huh?"

"Not even a bit." ? I quickly denied. "So what have you come up with so far?"

"I don't know... I'm not the one who's going to play, am I?" Then what's the point of you looking for those chords? ? "Come here and take a look yourself."

What?!

My heart begins to beat faster after he said that. What's there to be scared about, Wayo? He only asked you to select the chords for Pete's sake!

But I'm scared I might blurt out what's inside my heart with him this close if not through speech, he might see it through my eyes...

Why do I have to be alone with him inside a closed room like this, huh?

"I won't bite." But P'Pha's eyes almost look like they are about to devour me whole!

Fine... Getting help from others in selecting the best song is way better than doing it alone anyway.

Normally, that person happens to be Ai'Ming whom I can always rely on but this time, I know he also needs to practice Thai boxing for his talent show so I'd rather allow him to have some time for himself to do it without me bothering him.

I slowly approach P'Pha. He looks almost ready to go to bed with his outfit. Though he doesn't seem to look flashy at all yet I can say that he still looks extremely handsome.

"Which one do you prefer, Thai or foreign song?"

My soul has left me... Where are you? I can't think straight even a little bit. We're almost about 25cm. away from each other and it's killing me!

"Shorty..."

"Huh?"

"I'm asking if which song will you prefer? Thai or foreign?" Why do you have to look so serious?

"Uhmm... What do you think?"

"Why are you asking me? You're the one who's going to play so it's your choice."

"I want to hear your idea about it..." Actually, I'll follow whatever he says. If you're in love, you'll understand.

"Hmm..." P'Pha looks at my face like he's thinking deeply. "I think you won't have any problem with English songs..."

Why are you thinking like that? Do I look half European or something?

"... But I think you will go better with Thai Songs."

"Alright then..."

"Hey." P'Pha seems surprised. "Think a bit  for yourself too."

"Well, I already have something in mind..." I lied, pretending to scan the chords on his iPad he was holding for me to see.

"Which song do you think is good? What type of genre do you like?"

"What do you think?" I'm trying to trick him to give me the answer. ? Hahaha!

"Idiot... You have to think." Does he really think I can't come up with anything?

"I don't know... There are like thousands of pieces to choose from..."

"How about 'Lao Duong Deoun?'?"

"Huh?"

"You can get a possible perfect score from Professor Auntie."

"Really?"

"Hey! I'm joking." He's pressing his lips together showing that half smirk at the corner of his mouth. It's the most alluring sight I have ever seen.

d.a.m.n! Everyone will certainly fall head over heels once they see this. I myself couldn't control my heart from beating too fast the moment I caught it with my eyes.

Could he possibly hear my heart beating so loud?

"What do you feel now?" His question just came out of nowhere.

Hold on! He did probably hear my heartbeat?! ?

"Huh?"

"I think you will get a high score if you play the song that relates the most to your innermost feelings. You understand the word 'inner', right?"

Wow... Do I need to come up with something emotional like this?

"Hmm... I understand."

"Here... Choose then." P'Pha gives me his iPad. WAAAAH! His iPad!!! I'm holding his iPad in my hands!!! Are there p.o.r.n clips in it? I really wanna know. If only he doesn't keep on staring at me, I really won't feel ashamed invading it. Hahaha!

Hold on... The song that relates the most to my inner feelings right now? Hmm... Let's see...

'Corner' by Playground. 'How far is near?' by Getsunova'Don't you know?' by Nat Thew

d.a.m.n! All the songs are about 'unrequited love'.

"Calm down... Take it easy." P'Pha thinks that I'm upset but I'm not. I'm quiet here because I'm starting to get worried looking at the songs I have come up with to have something to do with unrequited love. Like seriously?

But maybe it's because I'm thinking about that person I secretly love who's just sitting next to me right now.

"Are you hungry?" He asks me. "I'm going out to buy something to eat. What do you want? I'll buy it for you."

"I'm still supposed to be your servant. You should order me to go."

"But you're a very sick servant now. I don't feel like bullying you today." He seems really hungry because he already grabs his wallet and is about to go. "So do you want something?"

This guy is so cool. He looks a lot like someone who's ready to go to bed but he's not even afraid to go outside. As for me, uurgh! I look horrible. My appearance consist of an oversized shirt, thick gla.s.ses and ponytailed hair which tells a completely different story.

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"Wait! I'll go with you." I s.n.a.t.c.hed my own wallet and hurried for the closet.

"Shorty... What are you doing?"

"I'm changing clothes."

"There's no need. Let's go."

"Hold on! What? Me... In this outfit?"

"It looks cute. What are you afraid of?"

"It's a sleeping outfit." I argue without even noticing what he just said a little while ago.

Wait... What did he just say?

Is it 'cute' I heard?

WAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

"Come on, I'm hungry." P'Pha hurries out of the door.

In the end... Do I really need to walk aimlessly with this oversized shirt I only wear on my sleep? I'm not a G.o.d or someone like you who looks too handsome all the time no matter what you wear... Never mind though. Let's just think of this as a late night date between us both... ? prrrrr...

Yeah, something like that.

"No need to bring your wallet." He s.n.a.t.c.hes it from my hand and shoots it on top of the bed. Three points!!!

b.a.s.t.a.r.d! My dad went as far as Korea just to buy that wallet for me! ?

******At 7/11 accross the road...

This chain store is the best option around this area. It's a bit chilling since the place is quite near the beach.

Brrr... ? (feeling cold)

I stand quietly inside the store and dare not to buy anything (I don't have the money with me) while P'Pha puts a lot of stuff inside the basket he's carrying. Does he plan to buy it for himself or is he planning to raise pigs inside our room?

"Go get whatever you want." He said.

"I don't have the money..." Not am I only wearing oversized shirt to the store but I couldn't buy anything too! What a miserable life. ?

"Don't you know that it'll be my treat?"

"Really?"

"Are you too slow to process things in your head or you're that stupid?"

f.u.c.k YOU! "Your treat right?" Huh! I went to grab another basket.

Smack!

P'Pha hits my head lightly with a Pringles tube. "We can't even finish these... Aren't you afraid of getting fat?"

Oh! That's right.

"You became quiet all of I sudden... I was just joking... Go pick whatever you want but hurry it up. It's getting cold now and your clothes are very thin."

"Okay P'... Okay." I waii my thanks at him.

To be honest, I don't know what possessed P'Pha that makes him treat me a lot better now... But forget it! This is who he truly is. Even though he has a bad mouth and talks as if he's bored or hates the world, in reality he is very generous and fond of helping others.

I only heard about this before but now that I have witnessed it myself, I can say proudly that I didn't choose the wrong person to love.

Even if he doesn't choose me at all...

"Shorty, are you done?"

"Hey, P'Pha!" A voice could be heard behind us. It's Kuk'kai the girl from the room across who tried to rape P'Pha not many hours ago. (Allow me to use simple words here, please. ?) She's at the store with Sai.

I stare at her... Yeah... A beauty is always a beauty no matter what she wears. Kuk'kai still looks pretty with just her t-shirt and shorts on. She's a star after all. She still shines so brightly even at night.

"Are you here to buy some food? Why didn't you ask for me?"

?...

I become nothing more than a piece of wood behind the handsome Campus Moon. Maybe it's because our elements are just too opposite or probably those ladies don't pay any attention to me.

"I thought you have already gone to sleep." The idiot replies like a gentleman as he is until I already feel so spiteful.

What am I being so moody about?

"Kuk'kai haven't slept yet... It's barely 9:00pm." She smiles. "P'Pha and... Yo. (Finally she recognized my presence. ?) Please wait for me. Let's go back together."

He looks at me for awhile before nodding his head. "Hmm... Okay."

We're staying at the same place so we'll be using the same road going back. We were in the store at the same time therefore it's only natural for us to go together.

Don't mind me... I'm still trying to find some rational reasons to make myself feel better. I become so moody here which is quite strange.

Sigh... It's not wrong for Kuk'kai to like P'Pha but I don't know either why I feel so... Offended... Yeah, that's right.

Maybe it's because I couldn't freely express myself like her. This is the main reason why I envy her until I become this moody. ?

Not long after that, the ladies were done choosing their snacks. The things they bought couldn't even compare to the things P'Pha bought for us.

"Do you want me to carry it for you?" I wish I haven't complimented him for helping others. A small like that, even a toddler can carry it by himself. ?

Never mind though... It's his business. I eat Pocky in the most boring manner I could come up with...

? ...

"Thank you." Kuk'kai gives him a shy smile then walks to the front so that P'Pha can walk next to her while Sai slows down to walk with me from behind.

"Do you know?" Sai speaks smilingly. "Kuk'kai likes P'Pha."

Again... Even a toddler can notice that. ?

"Uhmm..."

"Actually, there's no doubt that P'Pha is very handsome but I don't know. It's like no matter how hard I try to chase after him, he wouldn't budge so I just give up."

Oh please... Give me a break. ? Don't tell me she's another rival?

"If P'Pha and Kuk'kai stay together tonight, I'm staying at your room."

What?!

"I won't rape you." Sai laughs.

It's not about that. "They'll be staying together?"

"I don't know but just be ready in advance." She said. "Kuk'kai told me that P'Pha seemed like he also wanted her that time but you came to interrupt so he just hastily walked out of her room."

Huh...? Is it true?

I become quiet looking at the tall figure with a willowy one walking side by side at the front. They seem to have endless things to talk about and get along well. This scene matches very well with what Sai just said earlier.

It's like a bucket of iced cold water is splashed on my face right now.

"P'Pha looks like he's getting hooked. I can't blame him since Kuk'kai is so pretty. Don't tell anyone if they are really going to stay together tonight, okay?"

I'm telling whom?

... When I myself couldn't accept this information. ?

It feels like my soul has been ripped out of my body when we arrive at our rooms.

"P'Pha, Kuk'kai has something for you... Please come to my room for a bit."

Both rooms' doors open at the same time. P'Pha stands dumbfounded outside with a confused face while I went to approach our own room.

"What is it?"

"Refreshments... Come first... Come... Come..." She said, pulling him inside.

I don't want to acknowledge any of these things so I just close my eyes and went inside our room right away, Sai follows behind me.

"You bought lots of snacks." She said. "Don't forget to leave some for tonight."

"Hmm..." I replied with a lazy voice and headed for the balcony. I don't even feel like eating anymore. ?

I don't know what's happening inside the room anymore. All I know is that I feel dejected... Dejected about everything I heard and saw. I know P'Pha isn't mine for me to feel this way but I really couldn't take it when he's being intimate with a girl so close like this.

It's like he's trampling my heart severely with his own feet... It's so painful.

"Hia, Shorty..." P'Pha opens the balcony door and approaches me. "The shrimp dumplings are getting cold."

I turn to look inside the room. There's no Sai but only P'Pha behind the closed door. He looks at me with his handsome face full of confusion. He's probably wondering what am I being so dramatic for this time.

"Hurry up! Come and eat... Or I'll finish them all."

"Hey! Those are mine!" I even asked for the storekeeper to heat them up. I rushed inside before P'Pha finishes them. We sat crossed leg on the floor and started opening the dumpling lit up to eat them.

It was the first time I feel so hungry that I already forgot all about the drama.

"So you're not going to stay in Kuk'kai's room?"

"Stupid." He scolds me. "How many times do I need to say that she always tries. .h.i.tting on me?"

"That's not what I heard."

P'Pha catches my hand which is holding a spoon. "What did you say?"

I hooked my eyes on the carpet. "That's not what I heard... I heard that you also wanted her but because I interrupted you both, you just stopped."

"Have you heard it from a drama series in Channel 5?"

"Huh?"

"And you happen to believe it?"

"Or is it not true?"

"Of course not." He says in a very upset tone. "You shouldn't have believed in others. You should have believed me."

It feels like something sharp is pointing directly towards my chest.

"Tell me honestly... What do you think about me as a person?"

I gulped. "I don't know... A womaniser, a playboy... Something like that."

P'Pha still hasn't removed my hand. On top of it, he even moves his face closer towards me.

"Shorty..." His voice sounds so serious that makes my hair stand to its ends.

... And to be honest, looks like I can finally believe in him this time.

"... I used to be but not anymore."

I blink my eyes repeatedly. "Can you let go of my hand now?"

"I will never lie to you... Do you understand?"

I don't know what to say... And I don't want to meet those sharp eyes of his right now.

"Err..."

"Answer me... Do you understand?"

Man! He's a savage!

"Okay, I understand." I'm trying to pick up the dumplings as a distraction but he won't let go of my hand. I already scoop one and it's now floating on my spoon.

"This will serve as punishment for your misunderstanding about me." He lower his face to feed himself with the dumpling I am holding with my spoon.

"... I'll take this one."

I couldn't feel anything the moment he grabs my hand and stares at me like this.

He's not mine... But I don't know why I feel so happy that he took an effort to explain everything to me... To make me believe in him...

Actually, P'Pha doesn't really have to explain himself to me over and over again...

"Shorty... Aren't you asleep yet?"

"..."

"You're already asleep, aren't you?"

"..."

"Good night... Nong'Yo..."

------------*- To Be Continued -*-------------